Music has always held an important place in my life. Some of my earliest church memories involve my dad and aunt singing while my grandmother accompanied them at the piano. Those old hymns were ingrained in my memory. Long before I could quote a Bible verse, I could sing the choruses of Count Your Blessings, Standing On the Promises and What A Friend We Have In Jesus. Even today, while I enjoy the praise and worship music that many churches are transitioning to, I often long for the beloved old hymns that I sang from those musty hymnals in my childhood. There is a beautiful poetry in their words.
I have no idea when I started, but at a very young age I would sit for hours at my aunt's piano, banging out what I was sure were beautiful concertos but what were, in reality, probably comparable to cats howling. When I was in the first grade, my cousin let me tag along to her piano lesson, and a love affair was born.
By the time I was in junior high, I was playing frequent specials at church and school functions. In high school, I became my small church's regular pianist. I remember practicing at my piano at home, working out different chord combinations, experimenting with different runs, trying new ways to play old favorites. I enjoyed trying new songs that I had never heard before, but I had a few treasured songs that I always came back to.
A few months ago, my cousin sent me an email saying she had ordered a gift for me but wanted me to personalize it. On a previous trip home, I had admired her Bible carrier that was embroidered with her favorite Bible verse. When she told me that it was actually a thirtyone cosmetics case, I was super impressed with her ability to repurpose. (I'm terrible at that.) She had attended a thirtyone party and was going to get me my own cosmetics case/Bible carrier, but she wanted me to pick out a verse for the front of it.
I thought and thought, but I just couldn't come up with that one perfect verse. Some people have "life verses"--verses that they feel like define their life or where they want their life to go. But I've never really run across a verse and thought
that one is my favorite. But songs? There are so many songs that speak to my soul each and every time I hear them.
It Is Well is one of them. I cannot hear that song without breaking out in goosebumps and feeling tears sting my eyes. It moves me every time I hear it. If it is being performed by a large choir accompanied by an entire symphony orchestra where the timpani roll and the trumpets sound in the last verse...it leaves me spellbound. If it is sung a capella...I am mesmerized by the words. If it is played instrumentally...I can do nothing but sit in silent worship.
I think perhaps the reason I love this song so much is because I love the story behind the song. Horatio Spafford was a wealthy and well-known Chicago lawyer in the 19th century. After losing his son to scarlet fever and most of his real estate investments in the great Chicago Fire, he decided his family needed a vacation. They were to set sail to England together, but a last-minute business need kept Horatio behind. He sent his wife and four daughters on, but a few days later he received a telegram from his wife that read, "Saved alone." The boat had sunk, and his daughters had drowned.
Horatio boarded a ship that would take him to be with his grieving wife, and at some point in his voyage he penned these words:
When peace like a river attendeth my way,
When sorrows, like sea billows, roll,
Whatever my lot, thou hast taught me to say,
"It is well...it is well with my soul."
I know I'm not there yet, but that's what I want my life to be like. When my son is smiling at me and the house is clean...it is well. When I feel like I'm doing nothing right...it is well. When I'm missing my mom...it is well. When I need a little more grace...it is well.
Every day I'm learning to say, "It is well with my soul."